Who wouldn't try to freeze the clock for a minute full of silence ?
Sometimes I think I can stop the time , but in a minute beside the world I see that the clockwises decide my moment . And even when I shot for the sky , the fragile pieces of my existance are letting me down , just to remind me that I'm always gonna be a step behind the sun ... behind you . Behind the boy who cries the nights , behind the lady who stares at the life while it's going away , behind the heroe who dies nameless ... behind the mother who has no chance to say goodbye .
Sometimes I let it scare me , sometimes I just can't fight back . It's a circle ..so like our choices ... they both begin from "what I want" , they come through the " what I will " and they end in a short " what I didn't " . But though we still want to taste more . We still believe in that .... I believed till yesterday I was alone ... alone in a crowd of missioneries .A stranger in my own home ... an orphan in my own family , a star in a lonely orbit of a galaxy . I consume on that memories, on that thoughts . It's like a little amount of opium which graounds me to life by devouring my soul , by dying ....
And there's a lot of things I still have to say ... a lot of things I have to do ... and nothing in return ...
Maybe one day I will be strong enough to give instead of take ...